Monday, April 18, 2005

My SSS testimony

i was first elected into the SSS Committee as asst. worship+ music coordinator when i was 14. The enxt year, i was promoted to W+M Coordinator and the next, by God's grace, President. Today my term as President ends and I am both sad and glad about it.

I am sad because I will no longer be leading the committee to run the SSS. But i am glad that it is time for me to pass on my duties to another and b a SSSer. Free to hang around and serve God in a different way.

Being in the committee and President has developed my leadersip skills and exposed me to the frustrations and challenges a SSS President faces. Each challenge taught me a new lesson and I great stronger by eah challenge that came my way.

Two of the most important lessons I learnt was to always trust in God. Keep my eyes on Him, and remember that He's always there for me even when it seems like He isnt there. To be open to God and let Him touch my life. And to let him help me, and not keep my problem for myself to solve, thinking that God cant help me. (that was one of the stupidest things i ever thought)

The 2nd is to remember that we are serving God. Not ourselves, not our friends, or the teachers or pastors. It's all about God.

Seeing the SSS grow and improve has been very encouraging and i hope that we will all grow in faith and in numbers.

SSS AGM 2005 results!

SSS Committee 2005/2006

Prez: Lee Carol
Vice-Prez: Su'Ryn Wong
Secretary: Yvonne Liow
Treasurer: Daniel Choong
Worship+Music Coordinator: Jason Kok
Asst. W+M Coordinator: Bryan Yong
Fellowship+Membership Coordinator: Cassandra Lew
Asst. F+M Coordinator: Tan I-Lyn
Logistic Coordinator: Addison Ooh
Asst. Logistic Coordinator: Bernard Ho
Asst. Logistic Coordinator: Andrew Khong
Publicity Coordinator: Lum Ying Ling

What?! Still prez?

Yesterday (Apirl 17) was the SSS AGM and i sure was looking forward to it. about 4 weeks ago i wasnt feeling nicely towards SSS and i was tired of it all. So of course, knowing that my term would b over yesterday, it was something great to look forward to.

After the AGM i was smiling like crazy. I wasnt prez anymore after the AGM. Oh happy day! i felt like a great load was lifted from my shoulders. I felt like FREE! happy! free from my responsibilities! free from being so bz all the time! of course, i still stick around a lil to help Carol (the newly elected Prez) adjust to her new post but still! Im free!!! if anything in SSS goes wrong.. it aint my fault! wahahahaha.. what a wonderful feeling! no one's gonna b approaching me about the SSS's mischief.

Someone said to me 'Welcome back!' (refering to being a good ol' SSSer again)
and i was like, 'It's GREAT to b back!'

and it sure was great! immediately that day, i went down for lunch with the other SSSers, something i've been too bz to do for months, and it felt great! relaxed. enjoyable.

But then, on my way home, the bomb fell on me. Something teacher Phillip said earlier finally broke through the barriers of my brain. I and the rest of my committee still hold our posts till about June. Then only do we hand over our posts n responsibilities. Adoi.. that confusing system again (like last year). I thought we're not using that system anymore! These 2 months where both my committee (current) and Carol's committee (coming soon) are both 'functioning' is for my committee to mentor Carol's committee. Dont ask me any more questions about it. It's the teachers' idea.

Bah! who cares! everyone thinks Carol's committee is the current committee. So be it! i aint gonna correct anyone. I'll just sit back n mentor Carol as i should. I aint gonna act President in SSS even if i am according to the teachers.. wahahahahaha!!!

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Sick n tired of it all

im sick n tired of being sick n tired of everything. I dont wanna get angry. i dont wanna b annoyed or bothered by anything or anyone. i just want to be 100% happy. Is it really that hard to feel that?

The stupid 'STUDY! for SPM' thing is bothering me 24/7 (parents) and SSS worries on my mind. Then there's the occasional 'friend' who's successfully making me see red. How to escape it all? How to keep my mind free n happy?

Probably only when SPM's over n hopefully after 2moro (SSS AGM), i'll have no more SSS worries. Oh well, i guess it's not that far off (after SPM time) since time's flying by like crazy these past 2 years. Let's hope i can feel 100% happy that time then.

Remember me this way

Every now and then, we find a special friend
who never lets us down.Who understands it all.
Reaches out each time you fall.
You're the best friend that I've found.
I know you can't stay.
A part of you will never ever go away.
Your heart will stay.

I'll make a wish for you. And hope it will come true.
That life would just be kind to such a gentle mind.
If you lose your way. Think back on yesterday.
Remember me this way.Remember me this way.

I don't need eyes to see the love you bring to me
no matter where I go. And I know that you'll be there
forever more apart of time, you're everywhere.
I'll always care

and I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you.
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
and I won't ever leave as long as you believe.

Remember Me This Way [Jordan Hill]