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I open my eyes, I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light. I can't remember how, I can't remember why, I'm lying here tonight. And I can't stand the pain. And I can't make it go away. No, I can't stand the pain. How could this happen to me! I made my mistakes. Got no where to run. The night goes on as I'm fading away. I'm sick of this life. I just wanna scream. How could this happen to me. Everybody's screaming. I try to make a sound but no one hears me. I'm slipping off the edge. I'm hanging by a thread. I wanna start this over again. So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered. And I can't explain what happened. And I can't erase the things that I've done. No I can't..
Simple Plan
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Thursday, March 17, 2005
SSS: Back to the good old games
Having been in the Senior Sunday School (SSS) committee for 3 years, one would know VERY well, that it is very difficult to organise games that everyone would enjoy. What with some SSSers thinking they're too cool to play 'such stupid n pointless' games that they wouldnt be caught playing cos it would spoil their image. Bah! As if being such a spoil sport would make their image better.
It is indeed very discouraging to plan games for the SSS cos everyone just dont seem to enjoy them. From silly n funny fun games to treasure hunts.. it's craziness how people just dont stop criticizing the games, saying 'It's so stupid', 'What's the point?', 'It's too difficult', 'It's too easy', 'So childish!', 'Too much running', 'You expect us to do THAT?!', 'It's so unhygenic!', 'Aiyah, dowan la.. so malu la..' and it just goes on n on n on..
They always demand for games, but when we plan games, they complain then dont wanna play it. When we lose our patience and ask them to plan it instead, they say "Alarr.. dun so like that la.. lazy la wanna plan, you do la". I'm like, "I do lah?! Ya la! That's what I'm doing wat? U all oni dowanna play!"
Too SSSers, you see the frustration we games coordinators face? We've tried so hard to find or plan a game that everyone would enjoy. We try so hard to make all of u realise how much fun you all can have if only you all would just allow yourself to let loose and allow yourself to have fun. Dont care about how silly you may look when you play the game. Everyone else around you are playing the game too. If they say u look silly playing the game, tell them they look silly too cos they too are playing the game.
Anyway, after 3 years trying to find a game that everyone would enjoy, i've finally found it! Last Sunday (13/3), of all days to discover IT! And who would've thought that this game, is THE game. An old favourite childhood game, totally childish and pointless, silly and crazy! THE game that we SSS game coordinators have been searching for.. IS... none other than CATCHING! Police and theif, Ice and water/fire.. watever it is. Just any form of the game catching.
It was such a big surprise to me. Seeing all the SSSers including me, running all over the Youth Centre, laughing and screaming. What a sight it must've been to outsiders seeing a big bunch of teenagers playing catching! It was a great delight seeing all the SSSers letting loose. FINALLY!
It is indeed very discouraging to plan games for the SSS cos everyone just dont seem to enjoy them. From silly n funny fun games to treasure hunts.. it's craziness how people just dont stop criticizing the games, saying 'It's so stupid', 'What's the point?', 'It's too difficult', 'It's too easy', 'So childish!', 'Too much running', 'You expect us to do THAT?!', 'It's so unhygenic!', 'Aiyah, dowan la.. so malu la..' and it just goes on n on n on..
They always demand for games, but when we plan games, they complain then dont wanna play it. When we lose our patience and ask them to plan it instead, they say "Alarr.. dun so like that la.. lazy la wanna plan, you do la". I'm like, "I do lah?! Ya la! That's what I'm doing wat? U all oni dowanna play!"
Too SSSers, you see the frustration we games coordinators face? We've tried so hard to find or plan a game that everyone would enjoy. We try so hard to make all of u realise how much fun you all can have if only you all would just allow yourself to let loose and allow yourself to have fun. Dont care about how silly you may look when you play the game. Everyone else around you are playing the game too. If they say u look silly playing the game, tell them they look silly too cos they too are playing the game.
Anyway, after 3 years trying to find a game that everyone would enjoy, i've finally found it! Last Sunday (13/3), of all days to discover IT! And who would've thought that this game, is THE game. An old favourite childhood game, totally childish and pointless, silly and crazy! THE game that we SSS game coordinators have been searching for.. IS... none other than CATCHING! Police and theif, Ice and water/fire.. watever it is. Just any form of the game catching.
It was such a big surprise to me. Seeing all the SSSers including me, running all over the Youth Centre, laughing and screaming. What a sight it must've been to outsiders seeing a big bunch of teenagers playing catching! It was a great delight seeing all the SSSers letting loose. FINALLY!
SMKTM: 5 blocks, 1 toilet
Interesting, how my school, a school with 5 blocks, 2 of them 4 storeys high, and 2 of them 3 storeys high, with a total of more or less 1890 students, has only got 1 toilet for girls and 1 for guys (btw, they've closed the unisex toilet. The school must've finally come to their senses over that.)
It wasnt so bad at first, when the girls' toilet was washed regularly and was in quite good condition. The doors and locks worked fine, the walls were quite free of graffiti, the toilet tanks, flushes, and pipies functioned well, except for one that rains (the tank overflows and drips on the user below), and the smell was actually quite OK.
Since the water cut last year, the condition of the toilet took a turn for the worse. There was no water in the toilet for a month, and the toilet sure stank. Eventhough the water has returned, the toilet never 'recovered' from it's 'sickness' up till now. Instead, it just steadily got worse.
Now, the toilet bowls are clogged up with water bottles and used pads; the mirrors all broken and gone; the walls covered in crude and stupid graffiti; the toilet cubicles' doors very tight, making the doors very difficult to open or close, and its locks all spoilt; the sinks clogged with tissue, paper, plastic bags, and the occasional chicken bones, and the sides colourful with water coloue paints carelessly splashed around by the art students; and the sink pipes below disappeared (no idea how), so the water in the sinks splash onto the floor and onto out feet.
Think that's bad? Just you wait, I left the worst for last. On the 8th of March, I guess an animal, or someone with very bad aim was purging in the girl's toilet. THe toilet was TOTALLY GROSS! Almost every toilet cubicle had a dark brown splatter of shit all over the sides of the toilet bowl. Shit was everywhere except IN the toilet bowl.
It amazes me, how anyone, exspecially GIRLS can be SO messy! so unhygenic! so gross! I wonder why do they have to spray or write crude stuff all over the walls. Don't they have anything better to do? And why did that purging fella have to go splatter her shit in EVERY cubicle? Note that there's about 10 cubicbles there. And if she just HAD to purge in every cubicle cant she wash it clean after using it? That was certainly the WORST toilet experience i ever had and i hope to NEVER see anything like it again.
It wasnt so bad at first, when the girls' toilet was washed regularly and was in quite good condition. The doors and locks worked fine, the walls were quite free of graffiti, the toilet tanks, flushes, and pipies functioned well, except for one that rains (the tank overflows and drips on the user below), and the smell was actually quite OK.
Since the water cut last year, the condition of the toilet took a turn for the worse. There was no water in the toilet for a month, and the toilet sure stank. Eventhough the water has returned, the toilet never 'recovered' from it's 'sickness' up till now. Instead, it just steadily got worse.
Now, the toilet bowls are clogged up with water bottles and used pads; the mirrors all broken and gone; the walls covered in crude and stupid graffiti; the toilet cubicles' doors very tight, making the doors very difficult to open or close, and its locks all spoilt; the sinks clogged with tissue, paper, plastic bags, and the occasional chicken bones, and the sides colourful with water coloue paints carelessly splashed around by the art students; and the sink pipes below disappeared (no idea how), so the water in the sinks splash onto the floor and onto out feet.
Think that's bad? Just you wait, I left the worst for last. On the 8th of March, I guess an animal, or someone with very bad aim was purging in the girl's toilet. THe toilet was TOTALLY GROSS! Almost every toilet cubicle had a dark brown splatter of shit all over the sides of the toilet bowl. Shit was everywhere except IN the toilet bowl.
It amazes me, how anyone, exspecially GIRLS can be SO messy! so unhygenic! so gross! I wonder why do they have to spray or write crude stuff all over the walls. Don't they have anything better to do? And why did that purging fella have to go splatter her shit in EVERY cubicle? Note that there's about 10 cubicbles there. And if she just HAD to purge in every cubicle cant she wash it clean after using it? That was certainly the WORST toilet experience i ever had and i hope to NEVER see anything like it again.
Thursday, March 03, 2005
Happy 17th Birthday to me!
What a way to start the day. I slept late the night before cos i was studying for the Kimia test i sat for today (yes, unfortunate me had a Kimia test on her birthday) and i wanted to sleep in till the last minute before i go to school. But then, well wishing people just had to sms me at 5am onwards. Therefore, disturbing my sleep and screwing up my handphone alarm that i depend on a LOT to wake up JUST in time for school.
I ended up fully waking up and getting out of bed at 7:21!!! and school starts at 7:20!! and it's an exam week! Believe it or not, i brushed my teeth, put on my uniform, get my water and recess food, and was down n out of the house in 4 minutes! Record time!! I dont normally eat breakfast but i was handed some hard homemade bread to eat just as i was going to the car, so i HAD to stuff it down my throat and it wasnt easy (i cant bear throwing it away, wastin food y'know). When i reached class i sure was in a rotten mood, birthday or not, and there in class were all my over cheerful friends wishing me happy birthday all at once and they started singing happy birthday to me! in my mind i was like, 'happy birthday? what happy birthday? I'm not happy at all! i slept late, din sleep well, woke up late, din get to get ready for school properly, had a kimia test starting in about 20 mins and i was STILL trying to stuff down the bread down my throat!' But i cheered up real fast.. exspecially after i managed to finish stuffing the bread down my throat.
The rest of my day went by pretty well, the moral n math test was easy, and my friends and i were playing very childish and stupid games that were of course, giler fun, between exams. Then i got to sleep for about 3 hours in the afternoon! it made up for the lost n disturbed sleep i had, and the weather was GREAT for sleeping (rainy, windy and cooling). Jeffrey, a friend i met from YLDP and havent heard from in quite some time, called me specially to wish me happy birthday (how nice!) and now, i get to be online! yippee!!
So, it was a happy birthday after all though it didnt start off well. For those of you who dont know, i hate Kimia, and i love sleeping!
Happy birthday to Michelle Wong from KL Wesley and Zennylyn from YLDP (dunno how to spell ur name, sorry) too! and James Wong whose birthday was yesterday!
I ended up fully waking up and getting out of bed at 7:21!!! and school starts at 7:20!! and it's an exam week! Believe it or not, i brushed my teeth, put on my uniform, get my water and recess food, and was down n out of the house in 4 minutes! Record time!! I dont normally eat breakfast but i was handed some hard homemade bread to eat just as i was going to the car, so i HAD to stuff it down my throat and it wasnt easy (i cant bear throwing it away, wastin food y'know). When i reached class i sure was in a rotten mood, birthday or not, and there in class were all my over cheerful friends wishing me happy birthday all at once and they started singing happy birthday to me! in my mind i was like, 'happy birthday? what happy birthday? I'm not happy at all! i slept late, din sleep well, woke up late, din get to get ready for school properly, had a kimia test starting in about 20 mins and i was STILL trying to stuff down the bread down my throat!' But i cheered up real fast.. exspecially after i managed to finish stuffing the bread down my throat.
The rest of my day went by pretty well, the moral n math test was easy, and my friends and i were playing very childish and stupid games that were of course, giler fun, between exams. Then i got to sleep for about 3 hours in the afternoon! it made up for the lost n disturbed sleep i had, and the weather was GREAT for sleeping (rainy, windy and cooling). Jeffrey, a friend i met from YLDP and havent heard from in quite some time, called me specially to wish me happy birthday (how nice!) and now, i get to be online! yippee!!
So, it was a happy birthday after all though it didnt start off well. For those of you who dont know, i hate Kimia, and i love sleeping!
Happy birthday to Michelle Wong from KL Wesley and Zennylyn from YLDP (dunno how to spell ur name, sorry) too! and James Wong whose birthday was yesterday!
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