Jinjinnn...

Dates

So much to do, so little time.

Would like to meet up with you (my friends) l before I fly off. I don't know when you're free, but I know when I'll be. So, I'll put my calendar here, and update it so you'll know when I'll be free, and where I'll be.

Blue: Free
Red: Got plans already

May:
16 (Fri): Last exam paper ends at 11.30am. Will be in Nottingham. (Might be willing to go to KL if i didnt do an all nighter the night before)
17 (Sat): Waterfall trip organised by UNiM CF. Might go home at night.
18 (Sun): Steamboat dinner.

19 (Mon): Should be going back to Nottingham more or less in the evening. Leaving for Redang from there at night.
20 (Tue): Will be at Kuala Terengganu in the morning, then off to Berjaya Redang.
21 (Wed): In Redang
22 (Thu): Back to KT. Go to Kuantan. Staying with Phoebe.
23 (Fri): In Kuantan
24 (Sat): In Kuantan
25 (Sun): Back to KL

26 (Mon): In KL
27 (Tue): In KL
28 (Wed): In KL
29 (Thu): In KL. Booked.
30 (Fri): In KL
31 (Sat): In KL

June:
1 (Sun): In KL
2 (Mon): Leave for airport at night.

Gone missing..

This is sad...
Barely an hour has passed and Happy Audrey's gone missing.

Oh well, while I am in this "Oh-so-happy" mood, I may as well type out my wonderful exam schedule =.='

29 April: Contemporary Economic Policy
2 May: Quantitative Methods 1B
10 May: Business Law B
12 May: Management Accounting and Decisions
14 May: Business Finance
16 May: People and Organisations

These are the dates that I will REALLY appreciate if u pray for me instead of disturb me =)

Happy =)

After 4 hours straight of study...
From 12am-4am...

Audrey is HAPPY~!!!

Why? I have no idea...
But it feels GOOD~!!!

And so, I'm determined to be HAPPY!

I don't care if exams are giving me all the stress in the world..
or that my perfect complexion's not so perfect anymore..
or that I didnt get to find my favourite ice-cream at Giant..
or that my knees are still ugly from that amazing fall few weeks ago..

I WILL BE HAPPY!
Happy like how I was during my MCKL days... =)

Happy Audrey is making a comeback!

If you really love someone...

If you really love someone, you wanna spend as much time as you can with that person.

If you don’t, you wanna get rid of the person as soon as possible.

If you really love someone, 6 hours with the person will pass by in a blink of an eye.

If you don’t, 6 hours with the person will seem like eternity.

When it comes to prayer, when it's not me praying, I can barely stand a few minutes.

I guess that means I don’t love God after all.

Undecided.

One moment,
YES! I'm running TO you!

Next moment,
Omg... Holy moly shit...

Sometimes,
I believe in you, OK. But I'm just... confused. Too confused.

Running after him. Running from him. Lukewarm.
Where am I?

This world

Jabs.. stabs.. kicks.. slaps.. punches.. Ah! Merciless world.

No Audrey, it's wonderful.. Cant you fell the love? Cant you see the beauty? The world is what you make of it.


Yeah, the world has lots of love and beauty in it.

I just happen to be in a part of the world where all its goodness is not embracing me now.


Yeah, the world is what you make of it.

Sorry, I'm not sadistic.

Why can't this be me now?

Speedtest

90 words

Speedtest

Survey: The science of romance

Today, I was asked to answer a survey which is a project for foundation students: The science of Romance.

Some questions were funny.. some got me thinking.

What is your status? (Ah! An easy one I thought. Single! But...)
Options: "Single and available" and "Single and unavailable" (What the? Why did they have to complicate things?)

When comparing the two, I'm guessing,
Single and available= Single and looking.
Single and unavailable= Single and not looking.

But what if I'm in between? Like, I'm pretty much against the idea of getting a boyfriend, but if a guy comes by and steals my heart, so be it.

What kind of physical attributes do you want your man to have?
Options: Broad chest, full beard, muscular shoulders, hairy chest, others.

Haha! That's when the cultural difference was pretty obvious. I don't really give a damn bout broad chest and muscular shouders, and I definitely DONT want him to have a full beard or a hairy chest!

What unseen attributes will cause you to fall in love with someone?
Options: Scent, sound, breath, kiss. (no option of "others")

What kind of options are those?! Imagine, "Dear, your breath made me fall in love with you". *Faints*

Not emo

Irritated.
Bored.
Restless.
Impatient.

I don't know what it is. But it's not emo.

Goodbye emo

Out of reach

Knew the signs, wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool

So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Catch myself from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you

Out of reach, so far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there for me

Out of reach - Gabrielle

You're dead

I go to the old haunted graveyard.

I walk amongst the graves.

Sometimes, somehow, I come by yours.

But I see not you, just your grave.

Many pass by your grave.

But only I knew what lay 6 feet under.

How you looked. How you felt.

How you lived. How you loved.

I loved you. You were the best I ever had.

You still are.

You do not reveal yourself to me.

When I am there, you are just a silent grave.

Talking to you is like talking to myself.

You who I loved is dead.

Sometimes, when I watch you grave from the shadows,

I see your ghost appear to join the ghostly party.

But the moment I appear is when you disappear.

Where did you go? Can’t you appear to me?

Can you really be dead?

You’ve become just a memory.

A memory dwelling in my heart.

You were someone to me

Not just any dead person in a grave.

I will go out of my way to step on that crunchy looking leaf

Did I fail you?

You were my best friend.

WHY have you become like this?
HOW could be become what you've become?

How did I fail you as a friend?

We moved on to other friends...
We were still friends, but not close.

Is this how I failed you?

Return of the Carpenter

In Nottingham Malaysia...

How old were you?

My display pic on msn for tonight.

Chatting...

Fiona says:
omg!
"Audrey/MingYee says:
?
Fiona says:
u look so cute in pic!
Fiona says:
how old were u!
"Audrey/MingYee says:
haha!
Fiona says:
Awwwwwwwwwwwwww
"Audrey/MingYee says:
um.. that was taken this evening

Low

Now, at this point of life... At this very moment...

It seems like there’s nothing to live for.

Nothing interesting in life.
No excitement.
No Fear.
No anything.
Everything is just boring, old and monotonous.
Life is just this and that
Everything dull and negative.

I’m at a point where I just gotta get back to what I have to get done at this very point in life.

Live.

And also get studying so I wont get screwed by my parents, and not screw up the rest of my life over a ‘phase’ I’m going through.

But even so, now I’m feeling so low, it’s hard to do even just that.

To do or not to do...

When god speaks to us, when n how do we obey?

We do 1 thing which we think god is asking us to do,

Then we end up screwing up our lives.

Then later when we blame God, ppl say we did it all wrong.

Ppl make excuses for God.

From this I am afraid to serve God or do what I think God is telling me to do

I might do it, screw up my life, then when I ask "What happened?"

Ppl will just say I did it all wrong and God didn’t mean for it to turn out or be done like that

So screw it, I'm not gonna do it.