YLDP: An introducion

YLDP= Youth Leadership Developement Program



It was held at PD Methodist Centre (2003, 2004) and is planned by TRAC Malaysia for youth leaders or future leaders.

I attended YLDP when I was 15 (2003) and again when i was 16 (2004). And i have totally NO regrets for spending a total of 9 days of my life and precious holidays there. Why, if there's YLDP this year too (and if im allowed to go), i would definitely go!

I was introduced to YLDP by my mom who went to YLDP when she was younger. She greatly encouraged me to attend the camp. She said it would help me grow in faith and in leadership skills. It sounded so boring, the way she described how the camp would be. She described very packed schedules packed full with talks and workshops. I, on the other hand just wanted fun, fun and fun! Exspecially at camps. I ended up going anyway cos my mom (a SSS teacher) made it compulsary for all committee members to attend the camp. I knew i would learn lots of things there, that would be useful in SSS, so i didnt put up a fight. i just went with the flow. And I'm VERY glad i did.

YLDP was the first camp i did not look forward to going to. I was afraid that it would be some boring solemn learning camp where i'd just go from talk to talk, counting the seconds till it's over. But at the same time, i was curious to know what YLDP had to offer.

Once i was there, my fears and worries disappeared one by one.. FAST! I enjoyed myself a LOT!!! The talks were really interesting! I could actually understand and relate to what was spoken. Believe it or not, i actually looked forward to the talks (something that i never did). I met youths from all over Malaysia who all have different kinds of characters, behaviour and lifestyles. It was interesting, and sometimes funny to hear about the things they do that seemed so foreign to me. Everyone was put into groups and we played games during our free time and during games time.

Most importantly, i learnt a lot of things that i actually found useful and my faith had a great big boost there. i was like, recharged! motivated! happy! It's cos of God's presense there; the great planning of the camp; genuinely caring speakers and helpers; caring, understanding and sensitive participants who want to seek God and learn more; and my own openness to people and God. I'm not like, writing an advertisement for YLDP here.. what i write is the TRUTH! and nothing but the truth!

It's fun! challeging! great! and i STRONGLY encourage any youth, exspecially youth leaders to GO for YLDP! Don't just think about it.. GO!

Beautiful Soul

Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney,

Weird tempo this song's got. Not likeable at first but after a while, it's nice to hear, exspecially when u hear the lyrics. In a world where there's negativity and selfishness everywhere, this is one of the rare more-or-less selfless and matured songs sung by young guys these days.

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

SMKTM: A confused school

Seriously, SMKTM is certainly a confused school. It should b called SMK Confusion. Why? Allow me to explain...

My school is like, THE religious (Islam) school. There's prayer time for the muslims TWICE during school hours in the afternoon session. At one time, guys n girls cant sit next to each other in class. Not even in the same row! Girls n guys dun line up next to each other. Then, we have a separate guys stairs n a girls stairs. N of course, separate toilets.. in the main block. In the MAIN block, ok..

Next thing we know, there's a unisex toilet in the form 5 block! But that's not all. The school also provided mirrors on the ceiling for ppl outside the cubicles to look IN the cubicles! Interesting! OK, i admit it's not really mirrors. The mirrors are actually the lights which reflects like a mirror.

So, my school is doing all sorts of things to make sure guys n girls dun get to be too close, but at the same time, they provided us with a unisex toilet n 'mirrors' for ppl outside to peep in the cubicles! Where is the logic of it all?

In conclusion, SMKTM is a seriously confused n interesting school.

World map on me

Just when i thought the chain sickness thing I had since last month has finally ended, did i realise that it was just wishful thinking. I just HAD to come up with some other so called sickness. I thought went through all the little sicknesses imaginable in the past month already but I forgot all about allergy rash. I was so thoughfully reminded about it when I got it.

Allergy rash is SOOO annoying, irritating n frustrating! It itches like CRAZY n spreads faster if it's scratched. So i cant scratch it n i have to endure the feeling of being freshly bitten by thousands of mosquitos. Lotions n medicines applied on the rash doesnt work. So all I can do now is wait for it to go off. While waiting, it naturally got worse, cos I cant 100% restrain myself from scratching. Last night, i had a great big rash the shape of Asia n another smaller one the shape of Australia on my left leg. I also had Kepulauan Filipina along my belt line. Next morning, Asia and Australia drifted to my right leg and the Kepulauan Filipina disappeared (a tsunami probably came over my body while i was sleeping and shifted Australia n Asia, and drowned the Kepulauans). America and South America appeared this afternoon on my back. How wonderful. So hard to scratch some more.

I really hope a it all disappears soon n that the chain sicknesses thing I'm experiencing will come to an end. I've had enough of all this sicknesses. For those of you who didn't know, I've been getting different sickness after different sickness since i came back from SSS Camp n YLDP last December. I'd have about one or 2 days break after getting well before i get another kind of sickness for a few days.. and it goes on and on. *sigh*

Please, pray for me to get well and for this chain sicknesses thing to end! I have NO idea why i came up with this allergy rash. I cant trace what I'm allergic to.

Back to school

Guess what? I'm back in school! Yippee!!

I'm just SOOO eagerly studying non-stop, very joyfully having fun with my homework, and encountering the oh-so-wonderful back-to-school experience all over again! Oh! the joy! To bury myself in my books, to savour the reunion with my ever faithful school bag, undoubtedly wonderful school shoes and ever beautiful light blue n snow white school uniform, to crack the secret codes of the nombor asas-es, and having my blind eyes open to the wonder and magic of janjang, to have the honour to witness the movements of the shining and ever glorified bandul hanging by the delicate string, to learn of the exotic and glorious history of our great Malaysia and the journey of the dear courageous Imams and oh! I'm just overflowing with joy that school has finally started once again! *extra overjoyed expression*

You must be thinking, 'this girl is CRAZY!! Posessed! a total genious! nerd! watever.. oh man, she's weird!' But don't worry, i meant the total opposite of what i typed up there. Read this? I meant the total opposite of what i typed! Just repeating in case u missed that line. I dont want u thinking I'm a total nutcase.

I can hardly believe the 2004 year end school holidays is over! It just FLEW by! Absolutely flew by. I guess it's cos I wasnt staying home for days or weeks in total.

First day of school and I'm already late. What a way to start of the new school year. Just shows how much enthusiastic i was bout going to school again. However, once i was more awake, all the determination to be a good student this year that i accumulated from SSS Camp n YLDP, came rushing back to me. But school as usual just LOVES snatching that all away.

I was unmercifully reminded on how crazily insanely out-of-the-worldly utterly BORING physics class can be. And to make things worse, this year's physics teacher is like worse than my expressionless n monotonous form 4 physics teacher (i never thought it was possible). This year's physics teacher is TOTALLY monotonous.

It's going to be a GREAT BIG tug-of war between my determination to be a good student and the ever faithful dementor-like school. I'm not letting my determination go without putting up a great big fight that the dementor-like school will never forget. Wahahahaha...

SPM year: Suffer?

A new year has come. And it's just not any normal year. It's SPM year. Ooohhh.. scary n long suffering year!!! Yeah rite.

I dont understand what's with everyone saying it's like, a tough n difficult year, u're gonna suffer, you wont get to play at all, you'll have to study 24/7, you'll get white hair if u havent already pulled it all out, you're not going to be able to be active in SSS anymore, u're gonna end up looking like einstein... n the horror stories just go on n on n on...

Well, come on! Cut with the crap! It's just a major school exam year! Of course it's gonna b tough, I'll have to study hard, don't play so much..(maybe), but it doesnt mean it's not gonna be fun! [Hey, I'm not saying studying is fun, ok. I dislike studying just as much as any normal teenager.]

There are other and exams around that are MUCH more difficult than SPM year. Why dont people tell these horror stories to ppl who are taking REALLY MAJOR exams like their ACCAs, degrees, diplomas or watever other higher education exams around? Those exams are DEFINITELY tougher than SPM and MUCH more studying is required for those exams.

The stupider part is, if u ask ppl who have gone through form 5, the majority of them will tell u that form 5 is the BEST year of their ENTIRE schooling life. So, tell me, what's with the horror stories? I don't get it! Not to mention sickening n tiring to hear it over n OVER again!