Saturday, May 13, 2006

Tales of SMK Taman Monyet

I am Abigail Low (left), Math top scorer and very qualified Biology, Chemistry and Physics teacher in SMK Taman Monyet. This is my best student (an aspiring doctor) and I. (I'm refering to the punjabi girl in the mask ok, not the skeleton)



This is me in my territory. Again, with my favourite student. Ah, life's good when it's just me teaching her.



Though she has an annoying habbit of poking that ruler of hers everywhere even when I'm teaching!



But.. *Sigh*



Being a teacher in SMKTM isnt easy. Exspecially when one is as 'cute' as me, and have students the size of Giants!



And the things students do in class nowadays..! *Shake head* Ridiculous!

Sleeping..



Eating and playing cards!



And the most ridiculous of it all...



I've always had trouble with Science hating students.. They're either childish little brats who refused to go to class...



Or annoying ones who didnt wanna leave class and always left me with no choice but to throw them out of class..



Then there's the group of monkeys that always run out of class n hang around the nearby playground...



Or go dating...



Sometimes, even my fav student will betray me and join that pack of monkeys.. I sure feel like releasing that monster in me when that happens..



*Oh God, what am I to do with these students?*




Occasionally, I'd get the help of Miss Li, another teacher that isnt as 'cute' as me.



But i couldnt always get her to discipline MY students.. I had to take things into my own hands..

And it dawned one fateful day where Kiren and I made an amazing discovery!



We applied severely complicated and advanced science on one of the science haters...



And turned her into a Science lover!



And we did it on all my students. So here we are, one big science loving family!



Yes, a job well done.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

JS: Malacca trip

During JS, we went to different churches around the country every weekend. The most enjoyable one was the Malacca trip. Our first trip out Seremban.

The food was THE number one thing we sapu-ed like crazy. We ate like we've been deprived of good food for weeks! Hmm.. come to think of it.. we kinda were... Ah! But who cares? It gave us a huge appetite for the tasty malacca food!















It all started out with a meal out in some kampung roadside makan place where we got to eat curry laksa and some pretty good mee siam.

After the meal, we were free for the day. Since we were such a big group we couldnt go sightseeing or do any particular activity as a group around malacca. Transportation problem. So most of the ppl went to some shopping mall nearby n spent the whole day there.

But i was lucky! My dear roomie had arranged for Janice, an ex-JS girl from Malacca to bring us around. We sure were lucky.

First up, where did we go? What did we do?

Go in search for food la!



Yumm.. Looks good doesnt it? Cendol biasa n durian cendol..



Mmm.. watch us eat lah!



My dear roomie, Gerviene.. Just look at her pretty puppy eyes..

Now, on to the shops in Jongker Street!







Malacca delicacies! Lizards, rats, cockroaches and centipedes!



All for one, one for all!



Did lots of posing. Dont Johanan and his friend look similar?





Alvin and Johanan saving Janice from the hands of Kayu man...



While Gerviene and I save Phoebe from the other Kayu man



Dumping ourselves on that old flimsy overdecorated trishaw. The trishawman was really nice tho. He let us pose there for free n he took the pic for us. And he can speak like a bunch of chinese dialects and english really fluently!



Posing with the snake! Janice belanja!



The snake and I. It's really heavy!



Alvin and the snake. He looks really cool doesnt he? Do not be deceived! He was screaming and shaking before and after he held the snake.



OK, now Janice was really and obviously scared of the snake here



Hanging out in the cemetary. and Trapped!



Posing in the that Kubu place







Gerviene, Phoebe and Johanan with the Guitar and Harmonica playing man



Bombs away!!!



We all over the kereta kerbau display! It sure was hard to climb up that 'kerbau'. Alvin sucking his thumb, and Gerviene picking the 'kerbau's nose.



Makan again! Our pisang goreng all sapu aedi. This is our coconut shakes! Only RM1.20 a cup! and got extra (the one phobe's pointing at) free of charge!



Next, Janice brought us to the jetty near the portugese settlement. On the way, we passed by Yi Zheng and Chit Shen. We stopped the car by them and stuffed them into the car we were in.



Yeah.. This IS the car. Janice and Chit Shen in front. Yi Zheng, Alvin, Gerviene, Phoebe, Johanan and I were stuffed at the back. Imagine that! 6 of us at the back and we're not even little people! In fact, 4 of us at the back were pretty big. Yi Zheng's 6"1!

Haha.. on the way to our destination, we amused everyone we drove by. One driver even took our picture when we stopped at a traffic light. We all smiled for him, but later realised he might actually be taking the pic to send to the police! So we took a pic of him on the phone so we can send it to the police if he send the pic he took of us in.



Cramming in was worth it. It was enjoyable in a fun and peaceful way.



And we got a really nice view from the jetty. This is one of my fav pics. Yi Zheng against the sunset.



All in all, this day is the day that is among the top of my 'Fav day in JS' list.

No.1: Thanks to Janice for bringing us around! She was late for worship practice because of us, and I think we might've damaged her car's suspension. 8 of us in the car!

No.2: Thanks to ourselves! Each and everyone of us made the day so enjoyable!

No.3: Never forget.. Thanks to God for providing for us in every way, giving us great weather, and not getting us caught by the police for car overloading.

Monday, May 08, 2006

JS: What I miss #1

I miss the genuine warmth of the people around me.
The feeling of acceptance.
Loving and being loved in return.

Friday, May 05, 2006

JS models














Eric on the beach















Padini advertisement material! Models: Edwin and Phoebe















From left: Chit Shen, Roy, Ben, Lawrence, Audrey, Jeremiah.
I have no idea what pose is Lawrence doing. But the pic still looks prety good.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

My true colour

I just took this online test to find out my true colour.

Audrey, your true color is Black!

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

I find the results pretty amazing. Half true. I wish it were a brighter colour though, with a happier and more cheerful meaning. I kinda disagree with the 'do whatever it takes to achieve my goals'. Looking back in my life, it seems very much untrue. But, oh well, I can hope that characteristic is actually somewhere in me and will surface soon.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

My hero, my superman

When i think of him, i dont know what to think.

There he is, the man who loves me more than anyone else in the world have.
The man who's always been there for me.
The one who held me when i was scared.
The one who made me feel so safe and secure.
The one who gave me the best he could.
The one who puts me before himself.
The one who always wished for my happiness.
The one who provided for me.
The one who sacrificed so much for me.
The one who always made time for me.

A man with admirable leadership qualities, great brains, great wisdom, good sensibilty, great qualities, a generous heart.

A humble man. A godly man. A man who loves and is loved in return.

I use to look at him and see him as my hero. My superman. Invincible.

But now i know, he's not invincible. He's just human like you and me.

But that doesnt damage how i look at him. Instead, because of that, i respect and love him more. For eventhough he faces obstacles like every other person, he still did what he did for me. But after awhile, it's not about what he did and does for me.. but it is that he tried and tries..

I've never respected or respected anyone as much as i love and respect him.

He is my hero. My superman.

My father.

Quoting JS friends

If I were to recall anything anyone in JS said in a flash, these would be the outcome:

Gerviene: You're so plastic!

Wing Hoe: Remember? We are S-es

Erreekka: 'Wake up O sleeper! For the day of the Lord is coming nearer. Prepare ye the way of the Lord! Amen! Halelujah! Wake up.. wake up.. or one day you will wake up and see only our baju left... As Mangkuk United we must wake up early! EARLY in the morning! NEGARAKU! Tanah tumpahnya-... Amazing Grace.. how sweet the...-'

Phoebe: I thought, 'Aiyo, my roommate is this 'Sorry' girl whose name is E.R.R.E.E.K.K.A.'

Chit Shen: *no words, just nod head*

Alvin: My back itchy. Scratch?

Eric: Why must happen to me? Why don't happen to other people?
Eric: Aiyo! I lost my first kiss to a guy!

Andrea: Audrrrreeeeey... (Wheehehehehe)

Yi Zheng: And when did i find out? Not two years ago, not last year, not last month, not last week but 3 days ago!

Lawrence: Plastic smile?

Johanan: So how are you?

Amos: Eyerr.. your fingers so geli when u tickle

Edwin: Watermelon again
Edwin: Justin

Ian: Audrey Kwong Ming Yee... *goofy laugh*

JS: A passing dream

It's May already, believe it or not. It doesnt feel like May. It doesnt feel like I've lived in this year long enough for it to reach May already! Where did the pervious 4 months go? Yeah, I know college has started, and life's been really bz, full of travelling to college, being in college for long hours, accounting homework, reading law and econs; and as always, when u're bz, time just flies. But i started college in March. What happened to January and February? TWO MONTHS! Where did that go?

Oh. Right. JS. That's where i was.

And so I try to remember JS. Imagine it. Visualise it. Put myself back in those days. They seem so recent yet so far. Like a dream. A passing dream. A different world in itself.

I put myself back in JS life. STM. The single room i shared with Gerviene then the double room. The 2nd Floor Girls Club. Sleeping in a sleeping bag every night, my endless alarms in the morning that end up waking gerviene instead, Gerviene waking me up finally, being in classes, being surrounded by friends, the feel of being in the classroom, seeing my dear friends everyday, meal times, remember the taste of the food, hearing 'mangkuk' every now and then, weekend trips away from STM, staying in different churches, the week in Kuantan, being surrounded by peers 24/7.

Yeah, i can remember it all pretty well. But yet, it seems so far away. So unreal. It may have been 6 weeks long stretched over 2 months, but yet, it just seem to have passed as quickly as a dream. Sometimes i wonder if i really was there.

Clinging onto JS memories is like clinging on to a dream. It's there yet not there. Real yet unreal. Too good to be true. When i think, 'I went to Jeremiah School', I'm like, 'When?' and then i recall, yeah, it was earlier this year, then i go, 'Wow... i was actually there..' and i stop awhile to take it all in.

But life goes on. JS was like a little stint in my life that taught me a great deal of worthwhile things. But it's not something to cling to. Not something we should dream and hope to relive cos no matter how hard we try, we can never go back to those JS days. It's the sad sad brutally cold truth. We can just reminise over those days, maintain our friendships, and take hold of the lessons we learnt and bring it out in our daily lives.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Psalms 143

1. Psalm 143 A psalm of David.
1. O LORD, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief.
2. Do not bring your servant into judgment, for no one living is righteous before you.
3. The enemy pursues me, he crushes me to the ground; he makes me dwell in darkness like those long dead.
4. So my spirit grows faint within me; my heart within me is dismayed.
5. I remember the days of long ago; I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done.
6. I spread out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land.
7. Answer me quickly, O LORD; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit.
8. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.
9. Rescue me from my enemies, O LORD, for I hide myself in you.
10. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground. 11. For your name's sake, O LORD, preserve my life; in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble.
12. In your unfailing love, silence my enemies; destroy all my foes, for I am your servant.

Tired of it all

From a blessed land I came
A blessed life is all I know
I found something was missing
I was not satisfied

In search of it I went
I fall away into the deserts
And I search again
Everywhere

I walk in the deserts. Searching.
Where is it? What is it?

I get tired of searching
Sometimes I walk on blankly
Then I search again

I could've missed it when I was blank
Maybe I should go back
Search where I missed
But I'm tired

I go back to the blessed land
The desert within me
The mask of the blessed covers me

I'm tired
Tired of searching

Tired of it all

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Zebras


Zebras are actually really beautiful creatures. I like seeing it's black and white striped body. I find it pretty much mesmerising. And they really know how to pose for pictures! They move slowly then stop for every1 to take pictures, then after awhile, move to a differenet pose and pause awhile again.

Like this first one over here. So loving it seems. Lovers.

Then here's a few others.















And now, did u know that even the zebra's butt looks nice? It's a work of art! Check it out! (Turn ur head, i cant seem to upright it)


Simply beautiful!

See Js eveywhere? #3


As I was walking around, a funny vision caught my eye right out of blue. It was this stray monkey sitting on a rock just naturally posing right there like a human being.

I wonder who it remind u of?

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

See JS everywhere? #2


And who could this be? If not for Sarah Chew and Andrea.

The 2 most impossible people to wake up in the morning despite Erreekka and Gerviene's best efforts. It takes a total of 30 minutes worth of early morning false prophesying, kicks and butt whacking from gerviene and threats to pile on them to get them to wake up.

Ahh.. such fond memories.

See JS everywhere?



When I went to the National Singapore Zoo on the 17th of March, I couldnt help but see JS in every other thing there.

This pic shows one of the significant events in JS (cant seem to rotate the pic). Can u guess what?

Let me give u a clue...

"Wake up! Wake up! Prepare ye the way of the Lord! Amen! Halelujah!"

Yeah, it's non other than Erreekka and Gerviene! Doing their early morning wake up call in Kuantan. You figure which is monkey is which..


Tuesday, March 21, 2006

My new boyfriends

Went to Singapore n found myself not one, but two boyfriends!




See? So cute :)

JS

JS has come...

And gone...

Forever.

Monday, March 06, 2006

Olny srmat poelpe can..

Cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Birthdays = Just another day

As little children, we would think birthdays are extra special days. We have this certain illusion of what birthdays are. Sometimes, we expect to be treated extra nicely. Sometimes, even like the (for girls) little princess of the day. Presents come rolling in, birthday wishes from friends, and if we're lucky, a birthday party with the usual games, food, and cake. We think things will go our way. We will be happy on our birthday. Everyone will be so excited it's your birthday! With nice events such as these, it's no surprise we looked forward to birthdays. Who wouldn't?

But the bare truth is. Anyone's birthday, is just another day. We remember birthdays cos it's the day we remember the coming of someone into this world. And we celebrate them cos we're celebrating the person's life. Well, that's how it's suppose to be. Nowadays when ppl celebrate birthdays at parties, ppl just go for the fun of it and the only thing in the party that reminds ppl that it's someone's birthday is the cake, gifts and perhaps the decor.

For me, the excitement of looking forward to my birthday has gone. The charm of it just disappeared as i grew older. The illusion chased away by cold hard facts of life. Dreaded piano classes did not go away just because it was my birthday. Neither did diciplining from my mother with the cane, or the monthly chemistry test, or having to wake early to go to school, or having to study n do homework. Life just goes on as usual whether or not it's my birthday.

Monday, February 27, 2006

My roommate, Li Vien

In memory of Gerviene Choo Li Vien

I am here today, to celebrate the life of a special someone. The answer to my prayers for a good trustworthy and understanding friend.

Gerviene Choo Li Vien.

My roommate in STM (Seminari Theologi Malaysia) for the first 5 weeks of JS (Jeremiah School). Let's observe a moment of silence to remember her. The impact she made in out lives, the words of encouragement that kept us going that extra mile, the way she shakes and kicks me to wake up in the morning, her generosity, her love for children, her hamsterish face and puppy dog eyes, her stirring preaching every morning in kuantan, her tears that seem to come so easily from her sincere heart that so feels for us, her crazy antics, and of course, her passionate involvement in the Cow With Guns Association (COWGA).

~silence~

The best roommate I could ever have. She was a good friend, still is, and ever will be.

(btw, she's still alive)

Imagine me without you

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
'Til the end of time, forever
You're the only love I'll need
In my life, you're all that matters
In my eyes, the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave youI need you

Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day
I'd be afraid without you there to see me through
Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you
It's all brand new
My life is now worth while
I can't imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard my calling
And you rushed to set me free

Jaci Velasquez - Imagine Me Without You

Monday, December 12, 2005

Back!

Just got back form YLDP last Saturday! I miss YLDP!!!

So fun! I wish i was feeling better though. Was in such a lazy mood most of the time there *sigh*. I guess that's wat happens when ur sleeping clock is haywire. I had lethargy running through my veins since 'after SPM'. Was so bz that i never got the much needed sleep n rest.

Advice: Dont let ur sleeping become like mine (4am-7am continued by 4pm-8pm during SPM). It really spoils the 'after SPM' celebration.

There was an up side to it though. Without all the crazy screaming and running, i didnt lose my voice during camp, i didnt fall even once, and no injuries for once! Amazing! For an accident prone person like me.

The lethargy is slowly running out and sleeping clock is going back to normal. Not yawning so much in the evening anymore and can sleep at 1-2am aedi. Trying to bring it back up to 12am. Hopefully, i'll b back to the energiser bunny mode by SSS Camp. Heheheh...

Is late, Mum complaining.. will crap here again another time.

Audrey OUT!

Plans

School friends, SSS friends, church friends, YLDP friends, old friends, and whoever else i know who's trying to reach me, after SPM time i planned with most of u all to meet up with. However, my schedule is so packed. So to save u all time, I'll just tell y'all my whole schedule so u'll know when im free and wat im up to.

Dec 2: SPM OVER!! YEAHOO!!! Go KLCC with school friends.
Dec 3: Catch up on sleep and do all sorts of random but neccessary errands.
Dec 4: Go to church, go to KLCC with church friends.
Dec 5-10: Go to YLDP!!!
Dec 11-14: Go to S'pore (Dad works there)
Dec 14: Back to KL
Dec 15-18: Go to SSS Camp!!!
Dec 19-Jan 3: Dunno yet. Most probably will be back in S'pore.
Jan 4 -26 Feb: Jeremiah School (with a 1 week break in between for CNY)

Hardly seems like i got any free time... Sorry if i dont get to meet up with u ppl.

So sleepy.. Will blog properly another time.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Praise Him

Doxology

Praise God from whom all blessings flow,
Praise Him all creatures here below,
Praise Him above, Ye heavenly host,
Praise Father, Son and Holy Ghost.
Amen.

Monday, September 19, 2005

Brain teaser test

I just took The Brainteaser Test

The Brainteaser Test = http://web.tickle.com/invite?test=3042&type=t

Pretty interesting results i got. The results:

Audrey, you answered 23 out of 30 questions correctly!

Congratulations! Your score is in the 91st percentile. This means that if one hundred people took the test with you, your score would rank higher than 90 of them on average.

When we analyzed your test, we also discovered that when it comes to quantitative ability, you measure in the 91st percentile. This score indicates you have unusually strong abilities when it comes to solving numerical problems. If there is a numerical pattern to be found, you'll find it. You've got a knack for noticing when something "isn't right." Whether you're conscious of it or not, you have an ability to simply understand when something doesn't add up. Also, when it comes to splitting the check, doing taxes, or determining the number of fans in a baseball stadium, you're the one people turn to.

The End.

Right, i have a knack for numerical pattern? But i hate math and science! OK, not modern math since i do well for that. But i hate add math! i hate all the math stuff in Bio, Kimia, and Fiz. Accounts is another one i cant stand.

Tests like this just gives weird results.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

SPM year: Suffer? Yes, suffer.

And now i see.. and now i know..

SPM year aint as fun as my ex-form 5 friends claimed it to be. Yes, the friendships are great, having a block all to ourselves (top 6 form 5 classes) no need to share with any other class is great too, ruling the school cos you're the most senior there among the students (the new form 6-s arent counted cos they're new. It's not their territory) makes one feel big and authoritive and the right to fully use the 'sombong and sarcastic form 5' thing is actually quite fun cos it makes the younger ones so terrified of you it's sometimes funny. Little things like that is fun, but the important thing in being in form 5 is the one that sucks the most and bring about the suffering.

Now that i've finally discovered the real and hidden suffering behing the pretty picture my ex-form 5 friends painted, i wished i believed what the adults and long ago students who are more 'real'. The very same that got me annoyed at the beginning of the year. I wrote about it in my very first blog entry at the beginning of the year. Had i believed them, i would've been more prepared to face this suffering.

Aint any fun at all, studying from morning to afternoon to evening to night to early morning, and then it repeats itself again the next day, and the next and so on.. There's so much to study, you wont know which one to study first. Which subject should i choose? Would it be form 4 or form 5? Which chapter? Which sub chapter? Should do excercises or just study from the book? Should i work on learning things i never understood or strengten my knowledge on stuff i already know?

Now, i understand why many kept saying 'It's a tough n difficult year', 'u're gonna suffer', 'you wont get to play at all', 'you'll have to study 24/7', 'you'll get white hair if u havent already pulled it all out', 'you're not going to be able to be active in SSS anymore', 'u're gonna end up looking like einstein'.. n all the other horror stories that just went on n on n on... It's cos it's true. I've going through it now.. well, except for the white hair and einstein part. However i do look more or less like a panda bear.

There's only so little time left. What with pressure from everywhere, i'd feel guilty for relaxing. To emphasise my point, i gtg now.. now is one the rare time i get to on9, and it's not even for long, that's y i gtg now. Gotta go study *sigh*

Thursday, July 21, 2005

SSS: Stronger than yesterday

I know, I use to love SSS at one moment n then hate it. It can make me so proud of it one second, then SO MAD at it the next. The frustrations n challenges i faced seem never ending, the things i did seem useless.. but then, at the end of the day, when things go well, everything i did just seem worth it.

During the hard times exspecially, I use to think that SSS brought me down, made life worse, sucked out my fun, make me lose my friends (or at least, make me hardly know them anymore), and weakened my faith cos challenges just keep coming my way. I sure was wrong.

Now, after stepping down from being SSS President after my term was over, I realise, that SSS had done a lot more for me than I ever thought possible.

It actually made me a stronger person, a better person, kept me in touch with God and made me a better leader!

I still did in a way, lose my closest friends. I don’t know them as much as I used to. But then again, when I think about it, it is because of that, that I had actually stopped being ‘clickish’ and had become more open to know others and made many more friends. Something I couldn’t really do, if I had stuck on to my closest friends all the time. I may have lost something, but I had gained more.

Being a leader in SSS had also made me realise that there's better things in life that I can do instead of just having fun all the time. In the Stacie Orrico's song 'More To Life', she sang 'There's gotta be more to life...Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me'. Yes, there IS more to life than that! And I found it in God. It is by serving Him that I find meaning and satisfaction in life.

Best of all, being a leader in SSS strengthened my faith. I was dumb enough to think SSS was wrecking my spiritual life. I thought it was making me lose my trust in God, but instead, it really really taught me to trust in Him and rely on Him more. MUCH more.

Eventhough SSS was discouraging and kinda 'brought me down'. The discouragement is what made me strive to work harder! Become better! Trust God more! and in the end, I just became stronger! Than I ever thought that I could be.

This is MY version of the Britney Spears song 'Stronger'

Oh, yeah!..
Now I’m… Stronger than yesterday!
Now it’s nothing but God's way!
My doubtful self ain’t killing me no more.
I’m stronger!

Than I ever thought that I could be.
I used to do things my way. Didn’t really trust in God
You might think that I can't last long, but you’re wrong
‘Cause now I’m… STRONGER!

Now, everything is clearer, and I cannot thank God enough for choosing me to be a leader in SSS. Though it was hard, it was worth it. It’s not really because I’m a better leader or a better person. It is mainly because I have learned to trust Him more and have grown stronger in my faith in Him.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

SSS: The on9 community

did u know? or do u remember? our on9 community?

www.circles99.com/s2

it's a SSS on9 community founded few years back. it's like dead now. what shame! how could it become like this? everyone! go back there n revive it! for the sake of SSS, please! Go tell everyone bout it!

Go tell it on the mountain, over the hills and everywhere!
Go tell it on the mountain that SSS on9 community exists!

Dun ask me y it's s2. I hate giving names. Plus, every other name i tried that wasnt too long was taken anyway.

s2 = 2s = Sunday School.

i know it should b like s3 for Senior Sunday School but then s3 was already taken. So s2 it is.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

U want me to eat grasshoppers!

The title says it all. Grasshopper eating! Interesting. Very interesting indeed. Me a person who is quite terrified by insects (this includes butterflies) eating grasshoppers? It is no joke. n it aint easy. This proves the power of peer pressure.

Today when i went to school, lo n behold! my wonderful eccentric friends had a surprise for me! i was thinking, 'Aww.. how nice of them!' But the thought didnt last for long when they took out the grasshoppers n dangled it in my face. With evil n determined grins, they told me i was to eat it up. I was like 'What?! eat GRASSHOPPERS? u gotta b nuts!' But i could not get away from it. They were just too determined to make me eat up at least one grasshopper.

I had missed school yesterday n i missed out on the grasshopper eating session, but my oh SO wonderful friends were just SO thoughtful! They saved about 5 grasshoppers for me. Interesting, how they could save the grasshoppers but not a bit of food from a birthday party in school that i also missed yesterday.

So, there i was sitting with the grasshopper in front of me, n all my friends watching intently. There was no way for me to get out of it. They had all tried one and now, it was my turn. I was thinking, if they could do, well, so could I. It should be easy, i thought. With a sudden brave heart i reached into the plastic bag to pick up a grasshopper. But as soon as i looked at the grasshopper, the little bravery i had for that few seconds vanished. It just looked so.. insect-like. Augh! the eyes looking out at me, it's wings, the legs! i could see it all. i couldnt touch it, it was so gross! But of course, with all the peer pressure, i had to do it. So i picked it up. Augh! It's dead body in my fingers! an insect, i was touching with my bare fingers! Oh, one down, 3 more to go.

Now to the next challenge. Putting it in my mouth. The insect was STARING at me! n i did not want to imagine wat it would feel like in my mouth. that gross insect's body getting crushed up in my mouth. the juices from its body flowing into my mouth n into my system. It's wings, it's legs! they could get stuck in my teeth! or down my throat. i must've been dreaming when i thought it would b easy. I tried force my hand to put it into my mouth. It only went into my mouth, but i could not let it drop into my mouth. I took it out n stared at the grasshopper again. The thought of it being in my mouth was flooding my brain. Finally, i just shut my brain n tossed the grasshopper into my mouth. i quickly chomped down on it trying not to imagine it in my mouth.

but HEY! it wasnt so bad after all. i was surprised! It didnt taste like anything, and it was pretty crunchy. Quite nice to chomp on actually. But the fact of it being a grasshopper made me quickly swallow it down. Ahh.. done! it was over! though it wasnt too bad, i didnt wanna do it again. i thought it would probably b 10 years before i ate another grasshopper. But 10 years came about 10 minutes later for me. All my friends had a video of them eating the grasshoppers, n i didnt. Soon, i was convinced by my friends to eat another grasshopper n have it on video. They said that with the video, i could show it to other ppl n have proof that i really did eat a grasshopper. Augh! i cant believe they did that to me! Why didnt they think of it when i was eating the first one!

And so, i ate another grasshopper for the video. Having had eaten a grasshopper before did not help much with the 2nd one. My 2nd grasshopper was bigger than the first one and had even bigger legs. This time, it was harder to chomp on, and it was crunchier n a bit tougher. and as i swallowed it down, one of its legs got stuck in my throat! i could not get it down till MUCH later. and there was bits grasshopper shell n legs stuck all over my teeth! It was gross! All this for the sake of having proof that i DID eat the grasshopper. So, to all u ppl out there who dont believe me, i have the proof!

This sure is one experience that i DONT want to repeat.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Mysteries of SSSers

'We want games! ...but we dowanna play the games organised'

'I come to SSS to see my friends, but im bz smsing my friends far far away'

'No one's jumps during worship sessions!'
'What? U want me to start jumping? No way!'

'I'm not back gonna sing back-up for the worship session, no way! Malu la, sing in the mike'
*answers ringing hp* 'Haahh? Karaoke ah? OK, I'll b there!'

'I cant play the piano for SSS'
'What grade am I? Oh, grade 8'

'Go Just Praise Concert ah? RM3 ah? No money la!'
'How much does my shoes cost? Oh, RM300 only! Cheap cheap!'

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

SSS: The stupid things I do

As i sit back wondering what can i write in a long overdue blog entry, i suddenly recalled something stupid i did back in the SSS Camp last year (4-7 Dec 2004)

The SSS Camp was held at the PD Methodist Centre, which had a slippery kind of cement floor which made the place a kind of danger zone for someone as accident prone and clumsy as me. The floor in my dorm and at the corridor just outside the hall had the 2 most slippery floors. It was dangerous for me exspecially in my dorm cos i had a tendency to run in and out of it and my no-grip sandals werent any help either. The girls in my dorm were all witnesses to this. Many times, I've dashed into the dorm, skidded and almost fall or knock into one of the beds/ladders.

One the third day of camp, just before afternoon tea, i somehow got involved in a sliding/skidding competition with Justin right outside the hall. The corridor was empty except for my mom who was WAY ahead, and Carol who was somewhere there (I didnt notice her at first). I was first to slide. That Justin, smart boy, ask me to go first to test the waters and be the guinea pig. The slide was great! that is, up till my feet came across a part of the cement that wasnt smooth. Then i went crashing and rolling on the ground. What a wonderful thing! Just what i wanted to do! [Yeah, right].

My mom was like, 'Aiyo.. see la, play somemore' *shaking her head*
Carol went, 'OMG Audrey! Are you OK?' *Very much amused and half laughing*

and to my horror, Pastorpher (the speaker) and his wife had come out of the hall just in time to see my wonderful fall. Great. They too, of course, expressed their concern, but good thing they didnt make a big deal about it.

And the Oh-so-wonderful-gentlemanly (yeah right) Justin was like Carol, very much amused and half laughing. and he said in his typical Justin slang, 'U OK ah?'

My knees hurt like hell! But of course, i was cool.. on the outside at least. I just laughed it off in front of everyone, hoping no one notice my shaky voice. NO WAY was i going to let my mom know it hurt like hell at that moment, and not in front of Pastorpher and his wife.

After my fall, i should've just ended the 'competition', got up, and join all the other SSSers for tea. But the pain in my knees! I could not move just yet. So to cover it up, i told Justin, it's his turn to slide. That lucky boy, he slid VERY carefully. After that, i just HAD to get up! i had no more good excuses and i couldnt just sit there alone on the floor in the middle of an empty corridor when everyone else was in the canteen happily eating. I couldnt get up by myself. It really hurt that badly. Luckily for me, Justin knew how freakin painful my knees were and was actually nice enough to help me up.

My mom was waiting nearby. I put on a cover up smile and i forced my legs to walk as normally as possible towards her, ignoring the stupid pain in my knees.

When i reached her, she went, ' You, big girl already still play like this'
and i went, 'What's wrong? I'm fine! I'm always fine!'
then she just shook her head.

I went to join Carol's table for tea, but i had a bit of a problem trying to sit down. My knees couldnt bend without hurting like hell! I had to drop on the chair with the help of my hands, and it didnt help either that my knee knocked the stupid table leg. After that, i checked my knees and to my amazement, my knees were already visibly greatly bruised and swollen. That was fast! Getting up later was a problem too. I had forgotten bout the pain in my knees. As i was trying to get up, i was wondering why the hell cant my knees move! Then it came back to me. Yeah, the stupid fall.

Walking around wasnt as fast as usual, and going up the more or less 10 steps towards the dorms wasnt easy either. I had to hold on to the sides for help, and even with that, i was as slow as some 70 year old lady with arthirities! Oh! lucky me had to fall just hours before the last night of camp too! and i was to worship lead that night! It's a good thing i doscovered later that I was OK walking on flat land. Just as long as i didnt need to bend my knees much.

The last horror, i discovered just before i was going to sleep. How the hell was i going to climb up to my bed on the upper bunk? Oh, i sure did manage it in the end. But the pain i had to go through! Crazy!

And so, the days went by like this. All through the rest of the SSS Camp and then YLDP. The pain in my knees steadily lessened of course (just a bit though). But the big bad bruises stayed there for a REAL long time! Everyone in SSS camp who saw it asked me about it, then everyone in YLDP who saw it asked me about it too. Embarassing!

The colours on the bruises were pretty interesing. It turned into colours like blackish blue, blackish purple, blue, purple, green, red, yellow, orange, brown. And at one time, Charlene, who was also at both SSS Camp and YLDP, pointed out that a bruise i had looked like Jesus! Jesus of all people! and she was quite right! God blessed my bruise! haha.. After all, it happened during a church camp!

When i came home, i took pictures of it. And measurements too :P. Mayb i'll post the pics and if i can find the measurements, i'll add it here.

That stupid fall sure made life at camp and later, at home, rather hard, but oh well, there's always a silver lining on every dark cloud. At least i won the sliding competition! Haha!

update: just added a pic of the bruises. i outlined it. the pic was taken bout 3 weeks after the fall, so the bruise has shunk n slightly disappeared. just imagine! 3 weeks n it's still there.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Crush Calculator!

There's this interesting page i came across.. Go check it out!

It does stuff like predicts your future Love life using some sort of advanced mathematical calculations based on the concept of human psychology and bla bla bla... U know la, how these things advertise themselves. But amazingly, it's kinda accurate if you answer the 15 questions honestly and seriously. Just go ahead and try it for fun la, after all, it's short, easy and you have nothing to lose!

You sure won't regret this!

This is the link, just click on it.
http://www.crush007.com/love.cgi?id=1117688587axw

Enjoy!

Monday, April 18, 2005

My SSS testimony

i was first elected into the SSS Committee as asst. worship+ music coordinator when i was 14. The enxt year, i was promoted to W+M Coordinator and the next, by God's grace, President. Today my term as President ends and I am both sad and glad about it.

I am sad because I will no longer be leading the committee to run the SSS. But i am glad that it is time for me to pass on my duties to another and b a SSSer. Free to hang around and serve God in a different way.

Being in the committee and President has developed my leadersip skills and exposed me to the frustrations and challenges a SSS President faces. Each challenge taught me a new lesson and I great stronger by eah challenge that came my way.

Two of the most important lessons I learnt was to always trust in God. Keep my eyes on Him, and remember that He's always there for me even when it seems like He isnt there. To be open to God and let Him touch my life. And to let him help me, and not keep my problem for myself to solve, thinking that God cant help me. (that was one of the stupidest things i ever thought)

The 2nd is to remember that we are serving God. Not ourselves, not our friends, or the teachers or pastors. It's all about God.

Seeing the SSS grow and improve has been very encouraging and i hope that we will all grow in faith and in numbers.

SSS AGM 2005 results!

SSS Committee 2005/2006

Prez: Lee Carol
Vice-Prez: Su'Ryn Wong
Secretary: Yvonne Liow
Treasurer: Daniel Choong
Worship+Music Coordinator: Jason Kok
Asst. W+M Coordinator: Bryan Yong
Fellowship+Membership Coordinator: Cassandra Lew
Asst. F+M Coordinator: Tan I-Lyn
Logistic Coordinator: Addison Ooh
Asst. Logistic Coordinator: Bernard Ho
Asst. Logistic Coordinator: Andrew Khong
Publicity Coordinator: Lum Ying Ling

What?! Still prez?

Yesterday (Apirl 17) was the SSS AGM and i sure was looking forward to it. about 4 weeks ago i wasnt feeling nicely towards SSS and i was tired of it all. So of course, knowing that my term would b over yesterday, it was something great to look forward to.

After the AGM i was smiling like crazy. I wasnt prez anymore after the AGM. Oh happy day! i felt like a great load was lifted from my shoulders. I felt like FREE! happy! free from my responsibilities! free from being so bz all the time! of course, i still stick around a lil to help Carol (the newly elected Prez) adjust to her new post but still! Im free!!! if anything in SSS goes wrong.. it aint my fault! wahahahaha.. what a wonderful feeling! no one's gonna b approaching me about the SSS's mischief.

Someone said to me 'Welcome back!' (refering to being a good ol' SSSer again)
and i was like, 'It's GREAT to b back!'

and it sure was great! immediately that day, i went down for lunch with the other SSSers, something i've been too bz to do for months, and it felt great! relaxed. enjoyable.

But then, on my way home, the bomb fell on me. Something teacher Phillip said earlier finally broke through the barriers of my brain. I and the rest of my committee still hold our posts till about June. Then only do we hand over our posts n responsibilities. Adoi.. that confusing system again (like last year). I thought we're not using that system anymore! These 2 months where both my committee (current) and Carol's committee (coming soon) are both 'functioning' is for my committee to mentor Carol's committee. Dont ask me any more questions about it. It's the teachers' idea.

Bah! who cares! everyone thinks Carol's committee is the current committee. So be it! i aint gonna correct anyone. I'll just sit back n mentor Carol as i should. I aint gonna act President in SSS even if i am according to the teachers.. wahahahahaha!!!

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Sick n tired of it all

im sick n tired of being sick n tired of everything. I dont wanna get angry. i dont wanna b annoyed or bothered by anything or anyone. i just want to be 100% happy. Is it really that hard to feel that?

The stupid 'STUDY! for SPM' thing is bothering me 24/7 (parents) and SSS worries on my mind. Then there's the occasional 'friend' who's successfully making me see red. How to escape it all? How to keep my mind free n happy?

Probably only when SPM's over n hopefully after 2moro (SSS AGM), i'll have no more SSS worries. Oh well, i guess it's not that far off (after SPM time) since time's flying by like crazy these past 2 years. Let's hope i can feel 100% happy that time then.

Remember me this way

Every now and then, we find a special friend
who never lets us down.Who understands it all.
Reaches out each time you fall.
You're the best friend that I've found.
I know you can't stay.
A part of you will never ever go away.
Your heart will stay.

I'll make a wish for you. And hope it will come true.
That life would just be kind to such a gentle mind.
If you lose your way. Think back on yesterday.
Remember me this way.Remember me this way.

I don't need eyes to see the love you bring to me
no matter where I go. And I know that you'll be there
forever more apart of time, you're everywhere.
I'll always care

and I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you.
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
and I won't ever leave as long as you believe.

Remember Me This Way [Jordan Hill]